My sister(FC)

When my little sister, Kaylyn, and I were growing up she would always fault me for her mistakes. If she did something wrong she would always say “well Mecca did it too". As we got older, I didn't want this to be the case. I didn't want her making the same mistakes I did. I wanted to be someone she could look up to. Doing better in school and being a better person would be a good start. So I figured that it would be easier working on mefirst as a person and that took longer than I thought it would. By the ninth grade, I found out that I was actually good at drawing and that I would do what it takes to be the fashion designer I was born to be. Just as I was finally getting myself together, the worse happened. My parents were getting a divorce. They said it was a separation but I knew what that really meant and I was far from happy.

One day I will become that fashion designer that I would give everything to become. With the knowledge I get from college, I will be able to make something of myself and not struggle to live with a job that has nothing to do with my passion and pays minimum wage. I will be happy because I didn’t let anything stop me. That will also be the day I will truly express to my little sister how great of an impact her existence has had on my life.

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Christmas time (PB)

I love Christmas time. I love the smells.  The colors. The clothes. Everything's just perfect. It also help that my birthday is five days before Christmas. 

What I love most is the fashion. I love winter coats. When it's cold outside you can wear so many cute clothes and you don't have to worry about getting too hot. And don't get me started on the accessories. I also love winter boots too. They go great with any outfit. From UGGS to combat boot, they're all so fashionable. 

This thought really kicked in after today when I went down town to go see the tree light up at Rockefeller center. I had such a good time even though downtown was so crowded with New Yorkers and tourist. I loved seeing all the lights and decorations on the different building. I also went to Brayant park and looked at the people Ice skating(another thing I enjoy). It was too funny watching them fall down then pick themselves up knocking other people down. 

Ice skating might be fun, but I was paying more attention to the music playing in the background. Christmas music is the best. Cold outside is one of my favorite Christmas songs. And I love the Christmas specials that are always playin on tv. So far the lady gaga and muppet special was the best. In my opinion, the nightmare before Christmas is the best Christmas movie ever. You can watch it for halloween and Christmas. It's like a win win.

Not that I have a problem with any other season but in my opinion winter/Christmas time is the most fun. And Im actually looking forward to my birthday in two weeks. I can't wait 

Sleep(FC)

I never get enough sleep these days. I'm always so tired. Even when I try to go to bed early I can't because I will just stay up thinking millions of things in my bed. I miss those days when I was on a schedule. I would be in bed at around 9 o'clock and sleep until about 7. Now I go to sleep hopefully before two or one o'clock, but I still have to wake up at 7. 

I've tried many different tactics to get my self to fall asleep at an appropriate time. An appropriate time for me is around 11 o'clock, but that rarely happens. I've tried reading books before I go to sleep but as it turns out, I love to read so I won't go to sleep unless I finish a certain amount of pages. I've tried exercising a while before I go to sleep. That also didn't seem to work. For right now, I can say I'm pretty hopeless in the sleep department.

There was a point in my life when i was starting to think that my lack of sleep was something abnormal, but when I ask my peers they feel the exact same way. We teenagers have too much to do in a day. We dont have time to get a decent sleep. Now that we are seniors we have even more to do. Our lives are basically focused on college, filling out applications, writing our college essays, writing supplements. Sometimes I wish there were more hours in a day. 

Research (ID)

In my research class we all picked a topic and make a hypoyhesis. After we make our hypothesis we have to think of an experiment to support this hypothesis. This may seem like a very simple thing to do but it's not as easy as it seems. Aside from making a hypothesis, you have to make a consent form, a survey and a procedure. This is not for every experiment, but for mines I do. Then you can carry out your experiment. After the experiment you collect your data. From your data you will see if your hypothesis is proven false or true. 

My hypothesis is that sleep deprivation in teens will cause them to do bad in school. To test this hypothesis I am taking the test scores from two 8th grade classes, one tenth grade class and one 11th grade class and comparing it to the amount of hours they slept at night. Before I do this I will have to give out consent forms stating what I'm doing and why I'm doing it. The consent form will also include the students signature stating that they agree to this experiment. Right now I'm making my procedure which is taking some time to do. I can't wait to actually carry out the experiment. That's when thing will get more exciting. At first I thought that I wouldn't really like this class, but it turned out to be one of my favorite classes. 

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Thoughts (FC)

I don't really know what to write about. Right now I can really find only a little bit to say. I guess I'm going to take this free response just to get a few thoughts out there. 

I love cats. All types of cats. The fluffy ones make me feel all warm inside. I especially love it when they rub themselves against you. I've recently found out that it has nothing to do with their affection at all, but them just marking their territory. Sometimes I think my cats are weird because they do things u would think only dogs do. They chase their tails, fetch their toys and respond to things I tell them to do. Cats are the best. 

Another thing is sometimes I feel like I was born in the wrong time. Sometimes I wish I was a teen in the sixties but then I remember I'm black and that wouldn't work out as well as I would want it to. I wouldn't mind the music and the fashion. Sometimes I think I wouldn't mind being a hippy either, but that's another topic. It's weird that now that I'm older and understand more, I'm rethinking the time periods I like so much. I mean even if I wasn't black, I would still like to be a women but women back then also didn't have rights. Being a black girl is just 2x the problems. 

My Last thought is that I really hate being short. A lot of people feel that being short is cute, but coming from a short person, it's not. I hate that I always have to look up at people when I'm talking to them. It gets annoying. I would at least like to grow to be 5'4 but in reality that's probably not going to happen. Ill just have to deal with it. 

Supernatural (PB)

Sometimes I think I have an obsession with all things supernatural. I love things that aren't normal. Vampires, wolves, demons, angels, I find them all fascinating.

I think my interest in the supernatural started when I started watching charmed. Witches that had powers, that changed my life. I wanted powers to fight off the bad guys, but I don't really think I care much about using them to save people. This was when I was little and my obsession went away until my preteen years that I was introduced to twilight. For an author to take two supernatural creatures that at one point were feared and convey them as gorgeous caring beings is incredible to me and not to mention that this book inspired shows like true blood and vampire diaries. Both shows also have wolves and vampires in their main cast, but in those shows the vampires mostly stand out. In the summer of 2011, MTV gave viewers a show that mostly focuses on wolves. Teen wolves to be exact. Teen wolf is now one of my favorite shows now because after a while vampires are portrayed the same in every show. It's nice to have a change every now and then.  

About a year ago, I was introduced to the mother of all shows that dealt with all things supernatural. In fact the name of the show is indeed Supernatural. This show has demons, vampires, witches, wolves, angels, every thing, just name it. It makes you think about what can really be going on in the world around us. Also the main characters aren't bad to look at either.

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Growing up(FC)

      Every one wants to grow up, I never understood this. I've never wanted to grow up and now that college is getting near, my fear of growing up is becoming stronger. I don't mind being away from my family and being by myself, but who's going to take care of me financially. I'll have to get a job which I don't mind that much, but will it be enough to support me. Times are hard. Jobs are not easy to find. I probably won't be able to find a job I like and have to settle.
      Growing up is stressful. It's too much to think about at times. Most kids want to be independent and independence is fine but to a certain extent. At the end of the day you can end up alone. I don want to be alone.
      Don't get me wrong growing up has its perks. Not having to answer to anyone is one of them. You can come home at what ever time you want, do whatever you want and say what ever you want. You don't have to worry about upsetting anyone but maybe your neighbors. A down side to growing up is also that you have no one who cares what you do or say. For some things I like guidance.
      At the end of the day, we have no choice but to grow up. Some of us grow up faster than others, but we all have to do it someday. It really all depends on the adult you grow up to be.

My man Michael (PB)

      I love Michael Jackson. I love the way he dances and the way he sings. To me, he is the perfect person. I fell In love with his music when I was about two years old. I had his sparkly glove and socks. Over the years, my love for him became an obsession. I wanted to marry him. I didn't care how he looked, how old he was, I just knew I wanted him. Some times I thought that I wanted to be him instead of being with him. He loved monkeys. I loved monkeys. He danced. I danced. He sang. I sung. I loved him in every way. I don't know why, but his voice gives me chills still to this day.

      When I was four years old, I went to my first concert. Guess whose concert it was... Yes it was him. It was the tenth of September, 2001 to be exact. I'll never forget that day. I was wearing a green shirt with black leather pants and a leather jacket. I looked good. Michael wasn't the only one performing. Usher performed and I think Justin Timberlake did too. I wish the twin towers would have never fell down the next day, so I could of enjoyed this moment more.

      When Michael Jackson passed I was devastated. I think I cried that whole summer. I felt as if a part of me died. And still to this day I celebrate his death. He's finally free from the harshness of the weld. He was too beautiful of a person to even be on earth. He is an angel